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Seven days of love


  Xiaoya said I was a very narcissistic person, stay wet all day long the house, homes, Advantages and Disadvantages, covered all trace of an abnormal state. Like Dream of Red Mansions in the Lin. For a network of woman commented, I am surprised all shown written on the face, is the first time was with Lin to describe me.
  I am a third-rate writers, sell words for a living. Every day I have a dark suicidal during the work - writing. Every day I would create a lot of garbage text pasted into the Internet, or published in newspapers and magazines. Thousand dollars a month income, and can only just good to meet my living expenses.
  where I currently live in small, only twenty meters squared. I temporarily rented, very simple. In addition to being used on the desk is my laptop brought in person, the rest was left behind by others previously. Including raw so that a people baked the bed board, and a light gray of the old lamp. Although the conditions are very poor, but I like it here. Because quiet. Only quiet, I can write things.
  most of my life, not law. I rarely go out. Sometimes write something, do not even eat all day. And I used to reverse black and white life.
  My landlord is a fifty-to-year-old aunt, said she was mentally not good people. But the end of each month she would come up debt payment on time. The landlord had a daughter, I heard long as a star. Later on near a wealthy, never returned home to. She was busy at home too poor. Her mother seems to be a stimulus, will never be crazy.
  such a thing in our lives everywhere, and is subject to consideration as a novel, many people think is too old-fashioned and vulgar, with no appeal. So every time people talk about the face, I always laugh, agree.
  I turn on the computer. QQ, Xiaoya the picture is constantly flashing, glowing in the dark, the faint blue. I used the index finger on the mouse clicks in two, his words jumped out from the dialogue Marina.
  doing, sleep?
  not, writing it. I return to the past.
  tomorrow I travel, will go through your city, I want to see you.
  said too many people wanted to see me, most of them are my readers. They want to see my reason was simply trying to learn the identity of a voyeur I'm living conditions behind the words. But I have been refused one by one. Xiao Ya is one of my many readers. A month ago we met in a Chinese network. From the humanities and arts to entertainment gossip. We chat a wide area. Our understanding can always reach the deepest soul of the place.
  Good. Do not know why, I did not refuse her. Perhaps because there are many things in common with each other. Maybe I'm just looking forward to a Aventure. My life is too quiet, I need to inject some new elements to stimulate or fall.
  I am a man without a story. I'm 28, and still no girlfriend. Others thought of my physical problems.
  fact previously talked about a girlfriend. Is a purely material girl. She always like to get **** between us as a bargaining chip, turns to I obtain a copy of material needs. What gold necklace, a beautiful mink coat, a variety of expensive cosmetics. And every thing that I can not satisfy her. And she took my foot pedal from the bed to the bed. Take the time to be determined, but also ferocious swore. Beast, I do not want to see you.
  fact broke up, I would not mind. The sentence is just like a needle, pierced my raw so, bar, I never dared go near a woman. I was poor, three did not look like. I'd rather be a parasite in the dark, to hide. Sleep during the day, night out activities.
  met me and Xiao Ya. And I expected the same. Chestnut hair, large, clear eyes. This is an emotional woman, and I think she was just 25 years old. Able to let my heart at first sight a little startled.
  That you can go see it?
  forget it, nothing good. I'm afraid I shiver in the house, she would scare away my poverty.
  I want to see our great writers is what kind of environment, to create so much work to move people's hearts in love.
  urged her, I took her to visit my house. I know this is only a pretext, since right at your fingertips, why should I refuse, pretending to do an honest man.
  entered the room I would close the curtains. The house suddenly becomes a night. I opened the lamp. Ambiguous atmosphere in the air flow, a little bit of each other's body burns. She looked at me sentimental, between facial features are suggestive.
  We soon intertwined. I like her youthful body, like her skin smooth as water. Calculate more than two years I have not touched a woman. Every day, I have been to endure loneliness, but also writing lonely. I am a normal man, I also did not want adult sexual relationships.
  I thought Xiaoya soon leave. We are all a product of loneliness. She did not need for me to stay. But I was wrong,[link widoczny dla zalogowanych], Xiao Ya I stayed here a total of seven days. Although only seven days, but always made me feel like that long of seven centuries.
  it seven days a couple just like us, but more like a couple. One day we stuck together all day. Every minute of happiness to have come off as last minute. Only occasionally, she would walk with her dead lift me out.
  such days, like living in a dream. Dreams are all happy and sweet outside. I write for her a seven-day diary. I never write a diary.
  2007.7.10
  Xiaoya I met today. See her at first sight, I like seeing the Mona Lisa's smile, dark heart at the moment I was open.
  I do not believe in love at first sight, but to see her at first sight, I began to believe. Originally fell in love with a person, sometimes it is really just a second.
  2007.7.11
  I think I'm just too lonely. Otherwise, not so soon fell in love with one person. Very contradictory. When we enjoy lingering in bed time, I rejected all the facts. That she could not fall in love with me, and I can not fall in love with her. This is all just a game on the lonely.
  2007.7.12
  Today, I asked her several questions, she always on the dodge, slurred speech. Does she have anything without telling me. I was a fool, we are only just understanding why people want to tell you about her everything?
  2007.7.13
  Boutique today to buy her a lot of things in my house decorated, also bought flowers and potted plants on the balcony. The original dark room, once went so far as to life. Did not think she was a smart girl.
  night she cook, gave me a delicious meal. We drank a lot of wine. I began to call her wife, she called my husband. ****, The results we have been collapsed bed board, I was embarrassed, but she could not help but laugh at that desperate.
  I followed giggle.
  2007.7.14
  today, she pulled me out, asked me to accompany her walk. Beware, she said to herself bored me bad.
  I have long had never been out of the door. Perhaps to be too long in the dark in the bar. Outside the sun is not, but I feel so dazzling.
  but gradually I found out the sun glaring in addition to outside, everything looked so good. Tree is green, the air is fresh, the sky is azure blue. Even people smiling is so kind and nature. Maybe I
  dark life, from that day, it is ended.
  2007.7.15
  Today I just completed reading her a story. Actor called Midnight, heroine called Xiao Ya. A very poignant novel, a novel about the romantic R & B love.
  she cried after reading it. I comforted her and she buried her head in my arms, the more tears the more fierce.
  she said, Will you marry me. I write novels like it, start a love story forever.
  I said, a fool, of course, do not believe in pulling hook.
  2007.7.16
  somehow and that she cried. No matter how I coax her to no avail.
  This is a bad premonition. I do not know what she was crying. But she cry, I know, there may be some things we will eventually need to face.
  evening, it began to rain outside. Oh, really big. Pilipala sounds.
  crazy ****, we seem to want at that moment to life all the passion, all the happiness, all overdrafts.
  my diary did not continue writing. Because the eighth day, my lover Xiaoya away. Quietly away. My sky like a pair of giant hands appeared, I was back back into the darkness.
  when she left no word or two, leaving only a letter, there is also a picture. It's a living according to Xiao Ya. Photo, Xiao Ya stood on one side of the school gate, wearing a school uniform, pure and bright smile.
  I opened the letter.
  Midnight:
  forgive me leave without saying goodbye. Forgive me deceive you. In fact, I was a junior at the time. A month ago, doctors found out I was suffering from congenital heart perforation. The doctor said the rest of my days were numbered. So, I think to see you.
  really like you to write the novel. In fact, six months ago I began to pay attention to you. But I just watched in silence, and I do not want to disturb your peaceful life. Until a month ago, doctors found out I was suffering from congenital cardiac perforation, I just added your QQ. Also never expected that, through an online chat this time, I actually fell in love with you. So I decided to see you. I want to go to heaven before the left point of good memories. I do not think even after the kingdom of heaven lonely.
  When I see your dilapidated house, when I feel your loneliness and after dark. I decided to give your life into the seven colors - happy, healthy, happy, sunshine ... ...
  I hope one day you can live a normal life. Hope one day I will sail seven-color clouds sweetheart to marry me. Xiaoya
  holding Xiaoya photos, I suddenly to burst into tears. I think that sometimes love is after all ended too early, and we eventually irreversible.