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Whispering dreams


<td class=\three times ... ... I do not know how many people around me in the crowd, talking, my head was heavy, and almost going to not hold. However, I must survive. In my eyes, only these two little lives, and my poor baby. They are still so happy, do not feel sad, but because so many people around in front of some excitement, joy in dancing feet moving, from time to time issued by babbling sounds, do not cry. This, let me some little comfort. Look at their poor appearance, my heart full of pain. These days, they lost a lot, but fortunately they are not very delicate bone body, not sick. 'I'm sorry, my kids, my mother let you ... ...' if not in this street is not in the crowd, I think I must have been crying out. At this moment, can not tell what it's like my heart is, perhaps, everything. Regret, resentment, grief, helplessness ... ... but because the reason these two little guys, my heart is still not despair, there is a little bit of tenderness and happiness.
good people around, came and went. I know that they are but a few passing through, looking at our daughter's face, slightly to express the sympathy of the heart, but, sympathy sympathy go, no one in this world really is your savior, save you only you forever. To my children, but also for the people that abandon me, I want to live, live well, and I want to make him see, let him regret it sad ... ... teeth biting his lips tightly, my heart began to blood, an heart clog things straight onto the body, do not run out of my agreement begins with the eyes, down my cheeks thin, rapid slide, mouth, tasted a little salty. My head has been low, its not anyone around to see, even though they kindly dropped us a picture of that money. Money, Oh, Oh the money on the ground of these messy, once, because it, we endlessly noisy, and finally he left me, and left us poor children. Now, I have to kneel down here, this street, with my children, begging for money in this disgusting! I hate them, but had to beg them! Because I need, my children need. The world is really funny, me, a poor person, a person deserve! I can not remember my face,[link widoczny dla zalogowanych], once, such as peach-like Fenlian that have long disappeared. Now, just a messy hair, a broken mess of clothes, a gaunt face, a pair of glazed eyes ... ...
\This sounds so familiar, so gentle. I looked up, looked around, but it is a burst of disappointment. 'Oh, you are doing, do you still want that person will come back? Stop dreaming! 'Heart, a voice in the reproach of my ignorance, but, thought, or returned to the long time ago.
\is the father to do business with others, to hide behind the door, he winked. He excitedly told me smile, but also to the old man looked in that direction, waving hands and let me out. I barely tolerable total slipped out of the store, take my hand and breath he ran a small river. Each of us looked at each other sigh of relief and smiled. Many times, we are all so secretly dating, in a small town next to the river, I am on the arms of his big, warm, as if the whole world is mine. In short, a wild flower, make me silly on the better days. May be, parents find it too his family was poor, he did not have a technical near the body, they think I told him to be poor given starvation. So, resolutely opposed to our contacts, do not listen to any of us cried. Their home, I heard that the attitude of my parents, naturally, very angry, but also firmly opposed. Secretly between us, the natural in the near future, both parents on all know.
that night, not the main room in the home center, a small square table, that Washington dinner is the most difficult ever, and the room was quiet, can hear my heartbeat. I can not see anyone, bow my head to eat their own bread, and finally wait until they had finished, I thought I could breathe, and clean up the dishes for the table to escape the stifling, the father spoke up, \sit, we have to talk to you. \\ourselves to give choose a good day, you will marry in the past it. then, live well. \feel very dizzy head is dizzy, so that not a word against the words. In this way, so on the \No one from small to large is not the case, what are you set, whether I would be willing never! I hate you, hate you! Heart made a mad screaming, grievances turned into tears fall. \speak, for the first time, I am firmly against their \However, only one second, I'm completely down, knelt on the ground given the sound of knees almost shattered my head, \marry him,[link widoczny dla zalogowanych], we'll be happy! \Father's grim face prohibitive, the mother is not only in the side of the Yanlei language.
do not know where they come from courage, I stood up, quickly Wang Menwai run, there is no direction to hard to run. Faintly heard behind his father's mother's call and swear, but these voices gradually away, leaving only the silence of the night.
I ran out and did not go directly to him, I went to the river, watching the river cry. Head, only his shadow, and parents say. His parents say they do not despise the poor, they said he is not good character, will live up to me. 'No,[link widoczny dla zalogowanych], this is nothing but your lies, he will not disappoint me. He so loves me, he said that I was best in the world's most beautiful woman, he said he would love me forever! 'I sat on a rock beside the river, gradually stopped crying. I'm so tired, cry no more, but also does not want to move. I want a good sleep.
dream, he seemed a changed man, disappeared once the tender. Yelled at me, and even beat me! He said he does not love me, he was leaving, and one other person! I turned and left the back of a relentless go away. I woke up crying, he was standing in front of me. Looked at him, and I shrink back even a little frightened. His eyes full of gentle, knelt down, wiped his hands on my face was dry the tears, comfort me. And my head her into the arms of his large and warm. His hand gently stroking my hair. Comfort as a child said to me, go back, they are worried about you.
I earned from his arms out, looking at his eyes, said, \surprise, a very long pause, and finally say a word, one that makes me feel like a last word - \Ten years of the beautiful town. Looked back farther and farther in the town, I have some sad, \staged. At first, I really thought I was the happiest person in the world, and sometimes even innocently think that this fairy tale world, really, and I, that is, a beautiful fairy tale princess. Of course, no exaggeration to say, in a small town, I is not the town that included several near the most beautiful girl in town, many people have so praised.
However, I forgot, every fairy tale endings are only written to the beautiful princess and the beloved prince finally together. Then what, the authors did not write down. And every reader is naive to think that after that, they lived a happy life forever. In fact, the daily necessities of the trivial and the pressure from all sides, and finally beat the fragmentation of these fairy tales. Instead, the endless bickering. Depends, we are no longer used to loving lover, but, the angry enemy. Although we can not find what hatred between us, we are in such difficult to live with hatred.
sometimes, I will be very sad, will miss the town.
\I lay on white beds, and exhaustion of strength out of a trace of smile and looked at my baby, I forgot to die just like the pain. I looked at him, very happy and satisfied to hold them, said to me softly, \Long time, What have seen him have such a laugh, did not hear his voice so gentle, as if all they are back to the past. I think that even with a small baby, perhaps the future will be better.
However, when God intended to make fun of me, the arrival of their baby between us does not resolve a little bit of \More than two mouth home life more than ever difficult. Money, everything is money! We have no money to buy food and milk to the children, the child is sick, we have no money bring the child to the hospital, also owes rent, the landlord refused to be almost \... ... He, then do not go home directly, and then later, he told me he was leaving, and another man. He does not love me anymore. I asked him what about, you do not it? He did not say a word, turned to leave. That scene, and almost exactly the same as the day dream. Only this day, I did not cry, do not retain, any of the back left, disappeared.
\They will love you. \Through the reflective glass in front of a shop before, I stopped and looked at the glass in the haggard face, I decided to live well.
finally, sitting on the train home. My kids still very well-behaved,[link widoczny dla zalogowanych], not noisy no trouble. Oblique glorious sunset coming through the window, warm, the kids fell asleep in my arms, sweet smile, it seems had a beautiful dream. And I, in front of all this, is it not a dream? \But, do not know can not go back. Mom and Dad do not know how to body,[link widoczny dla zalogowanych], do not know that they are not forgiven his wayward, do not know ... ...
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